Bee for Blew my head off

so for the last few months im close to this one guy, this one - hot doctor near my home.

oh ya, hallo selamat lebaran buat yg merayakan! and dont question me with "bee, kemana aja lo??" im busy ok? yes, busy fucking and working, lol.

i met him thru grindr, lets call him SaM, well since he's a sex machine. silly name, ikr... :))

as you might already know, when fucking is great, you mistook it as love. and this is my case with sam.

we're both equal in our sex drive. we could had sex for 5 times a day from dawn to dusk. even midnite.

whenever he bootycall me, i always cum, literally.

we have sex like almost everyday we could. either it's day or nite. he always fullfilled my lust and vice versa.

we fuck like almost everywhere, well since i've told you that he's a doctor, we often do that in hospital. in his room, in his OFFICE, and even in a patient room. we did all the style too.

we're partner, but not in love, i mean i know we both a jerk, even after he had sex with me, he can just call another men to satisty him, and also telling me about that.

was i hurt? not particulary, since i still fuck other guys, and he knows.

why i said we're partner but not in love? even to satisfy our big sex drive, we often, yes it's often..., call the third party to do 3some. but we have this one rule, that we should never have another 3some with the guy we already used.

he's hot with his muscular build

he's cute with his half oriental look

and he's adorable with his outgoing personality. everybody that i knew and met him always like him.

and because of that many, and it's really MANYYY, guys that fell in love with him, and i obviously know that.

tho mostly we do 3some with other tops, the third party even surrender to his hot kisses and suck (he really is a good sucker for a top) and many after that, those guys ask his contact.

the problem with hot guy with big sex drive is, HE LOVES THE ATTENTION. like seriously.

he really likes when people (yes it's fucking plural) fell in love with him and conciously tell this to me.

i hate it i hate it i hate it

do i love him? well i dont think it's that deep, but i do feel jealous with him when i knew someone i knew like him (typical scorpio, i know)

when we met other guys, many of them ask us "are you guys an item?" and we both shook it off like it's a joke like "hahaha i cant possibly love him, i just cant". but deep down, im not even sure myself.

the problem went up cuz i'm moving, well we're still in one city, but it's faraway from his place. and he just told me today that he will also move to other city for a long time, i was crushed, i was and still sad knowing that.

we're so close to the point of that even if im secluding myself this past month i'd still text him. he's my all, he's my SaM. my sex machine.

and just now he called me and in the middle conversation he said

"well bee you know that we're partner right? i can only say this much thing cause you're... you. you know that i.. that i..." 

"that you loved to be worshipped and loved by alot of people tho you're not in love with them?"

"yea... that, well your major is psychology and you should know me that well..., so please keep my good name..."

"by not telling others that you like to fuck every hole you found?"

"ye.. yea, something like that, you got it rite?"

"yea i know." and then i cutted the call. and a little part of my heart is now broken, for this silly reason.

this is some unfinished story, i still dont know what's actually happened with my heart and my fucking head.

camera is still rolling and i still hate you SaM.

nb : please do fuck me again anytime, i hate you, but i still need your body.

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